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He is Leading …

10.2.12 – 1:15pm

It’s hard to believe a week has past since I’ve last blogged.  Days just seem to melt together and keeping track of days and times seems almost impossible.  There’s so much to write about and talk about.  Perhaps I will simply make bullet points and write according.

  • Monday night to Tuesday night was a wrap up of the prayer convocation 9/24-9/25/12, which was the Day of Atonement – Yom Kippur.  It’s the “holiest” day of the year for Jews.  It’s illegal for anyone to drive anywhere, buy, sell, etc.  People were throwing stones at cars that were driving the streets and the Police didn’t stop them because it’s illegal to be driving.  WOW!Being in Israel and seeing what takes place in this culture was special.  It’s sad they don’t see Y’shua (Jesus) as their true Messiah and Atonement.  Amongst the believers it was a day of repentance and searching of heart to bring areas of our lives to Jesus.  Some people fasted and others didn’t.  It’s the only day that Jews fast, as I’m aware.To close out the evening the nations came together for communion.  Some of the volunteers mentioned that this was one of the most impact-full parts of their time in Israel.
  • Heidi Bakercame and brought a message to reach the lost and to exalt Jesus.  She even said, “the lost won’t be coming here because they don’t have a badge.”  I was “security” for the convocation and actually had to stop her from entering because her assistants didn’t have badges.  She gave me a hug after her people got their badges.  Afterwords I looked into her eyes and there was an exchange that goes beyond words.  Truly the love of God is upon her life.  Nobody could come into the event hall without their badge.  I found myself stopping John Mulinde, Cindy Jacobs and several other speakers.  Heidi’s point was accurate, we must get out of the walls.Apparently, she ended up letting 6 Ethiopians stay in her room because the hotel was so over crowded they didn’t have places to sleep.  Word is that she pushed her bed to the side and slept on the floor with the rest of them.  Incredible!  Speaking of Ethiopians, the WORSHIP they brought to the conference was AMAZING!  I’m hoping to get their cd because it so filled with joy, jubilee and life.  You just want to dance, jump and/or laugh move!  Sooooooooo good!
  • Wednesday we packed up and left the hotel.
  • Thursday and Friday were free days where, Friday we went back to the Dead Sea.  At this point I’ve been hoping to recover from allergy/sinus congestion.  It’s been over a week that I’ve been battling this non-sense.  As I write this I know I’m getting better and strengthening.
  • Saturday was the closing night of the convocation in Caeserria in Nazareth.  This was a POWERFUL night.  The bus ride was about 2 hours from Jerusalem.  It was a good time to say good-bye to the other volunteers and exchange contact information.Once we arrived the clouds were filled over head with water.  Winds were blowing and it seemed rain was eminent.  As we gathered together to talk about our specific roles the heavens opened with rain.  A light shower of rain drops began to fall.  Being that it was so warm, the sprinkling of drops was a nice blessing.  It stopped almost as quickly as it began.  We gave thanks to God for the blessing of rain.My role again was “security/usher”.  This evening we had the blessing of 500-1200 holocaust survivors.  It was a blessing to help these precious elderly souls to know they way they should go.  Even though I could only say, “shalom” – “peace” I was blessed to help them find their way in this big coliseum/venue.  To think about what their eyes have seen was amazing.  A tragedy that happened so long ago, wasn’t so long ago.  There are so many survivors of WWII still alive!The program/evening was focused on them.  Pastors from around the world repented and asked the survivors for forgiveness.  Each survivor also received a white rose.  It was beautiful.  In spite of the challenges of putting such an event together, dealing with humanity, etc.  God was so pleased.

    How do I know He was pleased?  As soon as the fire works fired off to signify the end of the event, within 5-10 minutes rain began to fall again.  Light drops fell from Heaven and only for a moment.  People hustled onto their busses to go back to their hotel or airport.  We weren’t drenched with an intense down pour, but a refreshment on a warm evening night.  It was to me a sign from God Himself saying, “I see what you did and I’m pleased.”  If we repent, God will send rain.  We repented, gave honor and blessed.  God gave His blessing from Heaven.  He showed me how He truly is – The Alpha and Omega.  He sent rain early in the day and at the end of the day, signifying His presence, approval, and blessing.  INCREDIBLE!  ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE!

  • Saying good-bye.  Sunday I was able to spend one last day with the group from Minnesota.  This group of young men and women truly blessed me and all the other volunteers at the convocation.  We went into the Old City – Jerusalem to get some food, buy gifts etc.  I simply went for the fellowship because they were so fun to hang out with.  They invited me to move to Minnesota on multiple occasions, which was so warm and kind.  Too bad the weather in Minnesota isn’t the same, snow…. burrrrrrrrrrrrrr. 🙂  They really showered me with so much love.  The trip would not have been the same without them.  I’m so thankful for them.
  • A new journey has started.  Juan, another volunteer from Spain and I have decided to travel around a bit together to go as the Spirit leads to pray, tell of the Way, worship etc.  Juan is a 6’6″ brother that speaks 5 languages or something.  Before I knew where I would end up after the convocation, it was in my heart to spend time at a 24/7 prayer house I found out about early upon my arrival.  Juan had a friend here from Germany that turns out lives right across the street from this specific prayer house.  It’s clear I’m suppose to be here and am being perfectly led by the Spirit.  Juan also wanted to spend much time in prayer for Israel and the nations.Yesterday was the first day of the Feast of Tabernacles or Sukkot.  The first and last days of this celebration are “sabbaths” and so we spent virtually the entire day at the prayer house.  As I was there the Holy Spirit revealed to me that I will be in Israel EXACTLY 40 days.  WOW!  I wrote this down in my journal and questioned the significance of this to the Lord.  The idea of Joshua and Caleb scouting out the Promise Land for 40 days came to mind and I wrote that out as well in my journal.  Then immediately after writing this down I opened my Bible to read the VERY CHAPTER in Numbers 13 where it mentions the two scouted the land out for 40 days!  Incredible!His hand is upon me in tremendous measure.  Doors in the physical and spiritual are opening for me in terrific ways.  I can’t go into specific detail but His presence is incredible even in-spite of challenges I’ve faced while being here.I must give glory to the KING of kings and LORD of lords – Jesus Christ of Nazareth – Yeshua the Messiah.  All praise unto Him!!!!  I’m super thankful.  Super blessed.
  • I’m getting better.
  • YHWH has provided a roof over my head for about a weeks time.
  • He’s leading me and I’m following.
  • International connections are coming together in amazing ways.
  • Full strength physically
  • The Lord continue to lead me by His Spirit and all the purposes for this trip be accomplished, in Y’shua’s name.
  • More Divine appointments come forth as are good and fitting for the Kingdom of God.

Thank you for reading this.  It’s helpful to write out different events here so that I can keep this as a journal to look back on down the road.  I hope you’re blessed and prospering in every way.

Perfect Love,


On The Inside

9.23.12 – 12pm

In the blog posts and things I find myself updating about events and things going on etc.  As I reflect and take inventory of what’s taking place inside me there seems to be so much to consider.  Holy Spirit is continually encouraging me, refining me, speaking to me personally, through others and just being so good to me.  Jesus is such a great Friend, Brother, King, Master and LORD.  I can’t say enough about His faithfulness to me, not only in Israel but continuously in life. WOW!  Incredible.  He’s so IMPRESSIVE!  I am so impressed with this great God I know and serve.  He cares.  He really cares. He will fulfill every promise.  He has the victory.  He is completing the good work He’s begun in me, in you.

As some of you know I tend to have lots of questions.  Jesus says, “You have not because you ask not.”  So I asked Him to make me a GREAT “asker” the best possible asker I could be.  He has been faithful through His Holy Spirit to lead me into all truth.  Now I’m not saying I know everything.  He just gives me things to ask about, meditate on and inquire of – then He supplies answers.  Especially as I mix worship, prayer and praise into the mix it seems He uses all of life to bring forth His response.  As I listen to the speakers it seems as though each message is for me.  I can’t help but feel a little bad for all the people being subject to messages that God wants to talk with me about.  Now I’m partially kidding with you because I know it’s the Holy Spirit that uses the words to speak to the individual in a unique specific way.  He’s really bringing a refinement to me.

Miles Munroe spoke yesterday and brought some confirmation and alignment to some of my viewpoints.  He said that we as believers in Jesus Christ must go into all the “world” which means “systems” to bring the Light of Jesus Christ to each system for His glory.  We cannot run from the systems but bring His change….better stated, His Light to them.  I’ve resisted the idea of going into various systems as the case may be.  Now it seems I need to go in or start new systems as the case might be.

As I write I find it challenging to write as if nobody is reading this or to be a bit more prudent as to what I share.  At this point I will error on the side of prudence.

He’s confirming position in the body of Christ
Vision and Direction for the body of Christ
Vision and Direction for me personally, work, ministry, family etc.

Things are coming together nicely, praise the LIVING GOD!

Y’shua (Jesus’ Hebrew name) is true.  He is real.  He is good.  He speaks.  He listens.  He watches. He is faithful.

Inside of me, He is revealing my destiny.  He is revealing the purposes for which I am created. It’s great to be in the Promise Land.  (Side Note: It’s interesting that I can’t recall a place in the Bible that refers to this as the “Holy Land” though that term is used all over here but rather, it’s the “Promise Land”)

I’m so encouraged because in my time here it’s been one Divine appointment  or encounter after the next.  I love spending time with the body of Christ in Israel.  Seriously, please pray stay in a place of JOY when all of this is over.

There is a beautiful exchange taking place and I’ll never be the same.  Character Development continues….on the inside.

He is real. I tell you the Truth.


– Please pray my allergies/sinus’s get better.  My throat has mucous and I’m fighting the cough.

– Pray for strength as sleep has been minimal.

– Pray for a good attitude as it’s easy to be a jerk when you don’t feel terrific.


– All the visas came forth 900 or so and less than 50 were denied.

Much love!

It’s begun…

9.18.12 – 11.:28am

The convocation begun Sunday evening.  I am easily losing track of days and time.  There’s lots taking place.  Saturday was a full 26 hour day.  At 7pm I was asked to join a team to welcome the international delegates/conference attendees until about 8:30am.  Character development day, no doubt about it.  WoW!  I had to repent to the Lord for the things taking place in my heart afterwards.  It was good to see these things and take them to Him.  Fortunately I was quiet about these things as much as possible and simply let the Lord deal with me and I with Him.  “Die Quietly” as Graham Cooke has testified to.  Praise the Lord.

Yesterday was the Feast of Trumpets.  I was privileged to be an usher on the inside of the main hall and listen to a couple speakers.  One speaker was talking specifically about the Trumpet, referenced Revelation, Joshua and some other passages.  He spoke of the power and importance of the Shofar.  I was blessed by the message tremendously.  It is the one day of the year we are suppose to blow the Shofar/Trumpet.  They called anybody forward who had a Shofar.  I knew I had to go forward inspite of the fact I was ushering.  THIS IS WHY I CAME TO ISRAEL!  COME ON!  GOD ALLOWED ME TO BE THERE SO I HAD TO BLAST MY SHOFAR! 🙂

Primarily I’ve been serving as security/usher.  It’s been a great opportunity to meet so many people from around the globe.  I’ve received invitations to many countries – India, Kenya, Spain, Germany to name a few.  From time to time people come up to me and bless me with prophetic words/words of knowledge, prayer and testimony.  Divine appointments have been occuring left and right.  This morning I went to the restroom and to get a drink briefly to walk into the main hall to see Chinese and Japanese forgiving, reconciling and blessing one another, it was SOOOOO powerful.  I was crying at the beauty of such a moment.  Even now just thinking about it my eyes are tearing up.  I thanked God that He led me to go into the main hall at just that moment.  It was beautiful in every way.  This has been the highlight of the day so far, most definitely.


What’s going on inside of me?

I find myself coming back to life, back to freedom, back to the joy of the Lord.  It seems I’ve lost myself for a bit, not completely but the freedom to really laugh, love, experience joy and give is coming back again.  The community has been so strong and this is what I attribute to this revival.  People are embracing me in the love of Jesus and it’s so pure, clean and free.  I’m thankful for them and Him.  There are a couple brothers here that have similar hearts for the Lord, on fire, encouraging and filled with the Holy Ghost.  I’m thankful to be walking in so much joy again.  PRAISE GOD! PRAISE GOD! PRAISE GOD!

Let there be LIFE and LIFE abundantly in you and me.  In Y’shua’s name!

Wailing Wall, Dome of the Rock, Work, Death and Jesus …

9.15.12 – 7:09am


Two days ago we walked from the Mt. of Olives to the Dome of the Rock, the Wailing Wall, and several other tourist sites.  I find it interesting to be standing, walking and being in places that so much history has taken place.  In listening to the guides, the speculation of whether this fact or that fact – “event” took place makes me wonder.  There seems to be so much debate over actual locations and events.  An example is that there are at least 3-4 “Upper Rooms” in Jerusalem.  In going to these places I see how much the outward doesn’t matter nearly as much as the inward.  At the Catholic Church building that’s so famous whose name is escaping me, there’s a lady that hangs out there regularly dressed in “gypsy” type clothing.  I saw her kissing the building in a “worship” kind of way.  It was rather bazaar.

In writing about this I’m now seeing how the “religous” spirit works in this place … in this land, the seduction of it.  There is so much religion there’s no time for Jesus.  In the Old City there was a shop selling “Crown of Thorns”.  There’s no time to enter His rest … at least these are my perceptions looking from the outside.

While we were on the walk Thursday morning we discovered that Sean Mark a French man on staff here went to the hospital in the middle of the night.  They said his feet turned yellow or something, they didn’t really know what occurred.  In the evening there was an announcement that he past away that morning.  It happened so suddenly, I was shocked and yet the atmosphere and the staff here kept working away as if nothing had taken place seemingly.  Sean Mark had a prayer slot from 12-2am every night.  One of the nights I joined him and prayed that he would find a wife and get married among other things and now he’s gone.  He was in his 50’s if I had to guess.  It turns out he died of a heart attack.  Our life truly is a vapor.

Friday we went to the Hotel at 5:30am where the Convocation is to begin prepping for the opening day – Sunday.  We started the day with worship and then began our various tasks in preparation for the 2000+ arrivals.  We worked like ants and the work got done quickly.  Victor Paul and myself along with a couple others BBQ the fish in the afternoon for the evening Shabbat Celebration.  There were about 120 of us altogether and there was enough food for all, praise God!  I got to sleep in the 9 o’clock hour and woke up at 6am.  Praise God!  I feel more refreshed today!  I even slept through the “call to prayer” that invades and penetrates the walls every morning at 5am.

Today we have more preparations for the convocation.  Worship starts in 2 minutes.


– Going to another Messianic 24/7 prayer house

– Riding around with Justin sharing our testimonies and going to the airport

– Una the lady who was a tour guide at the Rock of the Dome – she said something that God continues to speak to me about, that I’ve been apposing, unresponsive, disinterested in pursing.  At this point I’m going to surrender to the notion and let Him redefine the terms to His perspective rather than my own.  If you’re interested in the topic, email me or ask another time.

– Worship and Prayer with the others has been the best.  Holy Spirit’s pointed out that I need to open the Word more than I have to this point and speak it forth in this Land.  Don’t neglect the Word, especially in this place.

– I’ve been super blessed by the prayers and hearts of those around me.  The SAINTS….

– BBQ on the Mt of Olives to begin Shabbat

– Victor Paul – man of God from India who always tells me to “remember” him whenever we go anywhere.  You will see pictures of he and I in the future as I receive them from others.

If we ask anything in Jesus name it will be done for us……such a promise.

love, life is too short not to.

Holocaust Museum and Old Town Jerusalem

9.12.12 – 10:15pm

Long days, short nights … good times.

Yesterday we went to the Holocaust Museum and the actual name of the museum is escaping me right now.  The museum was done very very very well.  As we were going through a Prime Minister came through with all kinds of news coverage.  I spoke with one of the camera operators and they filled me in a bit on it.  It was an interesting group with all kinds of security involved.  Also several of the IDF – Israel Defense Forces came through as what seemed to be part of the training program.  A bunch of 18 year olds learning about their heritage as it pertained to the holocaust.  I saw some crying at times while others seemed dis-interested.  You could literally spend an entire day in the museum and not hear every piece of information they have to offer.  I personally couldn’t help but feel that this event is some what a prophetic statement of what’s to come in the future for those who call on the name of the LORD.  There was even one particular scene that had a quote along the lines of, ” … with the number tattooed on my arm I couldn’t eat soup or bread…”  I thought about how we won’t be able to buy or sell without the Mark of the Beast.

What impressed me most about this museum and the Jews is the fact that “genocide” type atmospheres are at work on a daily basis in the earth.  One example that comes to mind are the Native Americans, they’ve all but just about been wiped out completely and live in a chronic state of great depression status.  The Jews are such a unique community on the earth, they are the only people group capable (in my estimation) to be able to bounce back from such a tremendous blow as the holocaust.  They’ve come together to remember those who had been killed, kept the testimony and build on what they have.  They are a people of record keeping, name keeping and history shaping.

We also went to the Old City of Jerusalem and went on a guided tour.  I found the tour challenging because the guide was clearly following a script that was rather intentional about what to say or not say.  Some of the stuff spoken about just wasn’t true.  I’m thankful for the exporation part of the tour, yet would have appreciated more truthful answers regarding what history really reveals….or I could have just been wiped out from all the walking??

The fellowship was definitely the highlight of the excursion.  I’ve really been SUPER blessed by my new friends.  They’ve all blessed me in unique ways to the individual.  The people have been the treasure of the trip because of the presence of the Lord on and in them, such a sweet fragrance.

I must sleep.  Last night I had to pick up a guy from the Phillipines at 3am and never made it back to sleep.  I’m wiped out….more soon.


I Got Married and Didn’t Even Realize It!

I got married and didn’t even realize it!

I got married and didn’t even realize it!  So check this out, my Mom introduced the two of us when I was 4 years old!  Wow, I know.  The relationship developed in my formative years through grade school.  I was continually learning about this amazing person, spending time together, laughing, crying … you know the whole bit … at times we were inseparable.

Then my family moved and I began going to a public school.  I didn’t know who I was, completely lost.  Especially when my parents got divorced I didn’t know up from down.  It was a time of heart ache and loneliness.  I felt completely alone.  I missed the love of my life tremendously.  We didn’t talk too often (mostly because of me) nor did we ever see each other except on rare occasions and when we did I was distant and awkward.  Have you ever felt isolated, alone, unwanted and inadequate?  Well these are the things my life was wrought with.  I threw myself into sports … football, basketball and baseball.  Yeah, sedate yourself with a bunch of activities to numb the pain and don’t become great at any one sport so you won’t have to receive any adulation over your athletic gifts.

Even though I was depressed and not very personable the love of my life was always waiting in the wings for me to return.  I never completely turned my back but I was far from anything resembling a loveable individual.  My thoughts of relationship were smashed.  What’s the point of ever getting into a relationship if it’s only going to end in divorce (what a bunch of rubbish that lie is)?

College, oh college.  Since I decided to get a job and work rather than play sports my free time was much greater.  I began to drink at parties to fit in because my self-esteem was so low.  I didn’t drink in high school because I thought losers drink (I only realized later that drinking is just a different way other people deal with the pain they face in life … numb yourself to the realities of life and it doesn’t seem so bad all of a sudden – which is a lie too … so I began drinking in college and became a loser in my own head … regrettably).  Now some of you who know me would say, ahhh Jolley you never drank as hard as I did.  Sure, this may be true.  It’s the stupid things I did when I drank that hurt most and the self esteem only gets lower once you begin to sober up.

Oddly enough, the love of my life still loved and no kidding still wanted me.  Me.  It seemed as though there were nothing I could do to shake this love off.  The more dumb things I did the greater the love seemed to be.  Yeah, it’s the weirdest thing I’ve experienced and to be honest it bothered me … is this person even more delusional than me?  “Wow … you’ve got problems,” I thought.  “You’ve seen all these things I’ve done and you still care about me?  You still want to be with me?  You still want to talk with me?  You still want to see me? How?  Why?”  The love of my life gave no logical explanation.

In my sophomore year of college I lost a best friend.  He killed himself at the age of 19.  At the time I would say I was his best friend.  We talked often.  I would go over to his house un-announced and tell him about things going on with other mutual friends.  It is not an easy thing losing a friend that was not only a really amazing person but had so much to offer the world.  I would love one opportunity to tell him how unique, talented and special he is, just one!  Perhaps that bit of encouragement would be enough to sway the decision made in that early part of the school year in September?  I lost my grandfather the next year going into my junior year.   I learned later upon reflecting much about not holding grudges, telling people the truth, forgiveness and making sure they no how special they are to me.  Life is short.  I began to learn that, “There’s no time like the present to correct the mistakes of the past.”

Death, depression, loneliness, self esteem issues swirled around me through college.  I didn’t know what to trust, what to hold onto, what to do with myself???  Have you ever felt this way???  I’m sure you have, but when you are in those moments of desperation and bleakness … looking to others doesn’t seem to be any kind of solution but more a compounding to the problem.  Thoughts of, “We don’t want to alarm anyone or have them think I’m more bizarre than I already know myself to be.  I’ll be an outcast for sure then.”  These thoughts too one’s self are lies as well, they only make you human and sharing them with somebody else is the best thing you can do.  (I’m all ears by the way if this is you today, please call or email me.)

Upon graduation I lived a life of seclusion with my business and filling my life with more schooling.  I always have to be learning more and keep up the outside picture of perfection.  Do you realize how hard that is?  All the while the love of my life was “wooing” me.  The love of my life was pursuing me.  I had no time for my love.  I completely ignored my love.  Yet I was still pursued.  Is there nothing I can do to deter my love?  I thought, “You really must be crazy.  Yes, no you are crazy.  Can’t you get a freaking clue you insane whack job??  Helllllllllooooooooo I’m not interested.  I have other things to do.  I need to go make a million dollars by the time I’m 30, call me then pleeeeeaaaaaase.”

My love never could take a hint, thank goodness.  When I was 23 I began looking back and reflecting over my life.  When was I most content?  When was I most solid as a person?  The answer came to me and it was at the high point of my relationship with the love of my life back in grade school.  This was when I was clearly most contented and solid as an individual.  Immediately I got on the horn and called out to my love.  I explained everything … the ups … the downs … the confusion … the doubts … the times I was a huge jerk – frequently I might add … I decided in my heart I wanted to know my love again.  I began to pursue my love this time … for the first time.  I knew it wouldn’t be easy, it wasn’t but guess what?  I made a commitment to stay true to my love.

I wanted to be with my love forever and guess what, the feelings were mutual!!!  Haaaaaaaa!  What a happy day.  We got engaged at that very moment, the very moment I announced my feelings for my love they were received whole heartedly.  Wow … I now knew the love of my life was insane!  Good news for me that’s for sure!!!  I really scored, thank my lucky stars!  After the partying, the debauchery, rejection, the doubts, the loneliness, the depression, low self esteem … none of that seemed to matter, none of it.  The love of my life loved me unconditionally through the pain, suffering, isolation and heart aches.  Is this not love?

From the age of 23-25 we spent getting re-acquainted with each other.  We talked frequently, spent time together, shared intimate moments, laughed and cried, cherished each others presence.  A healing bond began to form as I began to listen to the love of my life much more intently.  I found the more time I spent with the love of my life the more I realized the engagement process is really a rewarding and necessary experience to share.  The bonds formed in this “engagement relationship” are so much tighter than anything I’ve ever experienced to this point.  How thankful I was.

At the age of 25 the question was asked, “Are you going to marry me or what?”  Initially, I was freaked out of my miiiiiiiiind as they say, with that question.  Then I relaxed and thought about it.  Hmmmm … why not?  My love has never left me, never turned from me, always loved me no matter how awful my actions were.  I would have to be crazy not to get married.  So I did it!  I signed my life over to the love of my life Jesus Christ and got married!!!  It took me 21 years for me to completely submit my entire life over to Jesus.  The Lord was pursuing me my whole life but I wasn’t made aware of Him until I was 4 years old even though he was aware of me.  I actually just realized what I had done about 3.5 years ago this last weekend.

When I was 25, I decided to write a contract to Jesus giving him my entire life and to be my Lord and Master.  It’s one thing to have a bunch of head knowledge about the Bible, believe Jesus existed, did some cool things, and rose again on the 3rd day after hanging on the cross and dieing.  It’s an entirely different thing to commit your life to Him as your only focus, to trust Him alone and live the Bible out in action (He’s continually working on that with me).

See this world is filled with false gods; Tv, money, other people, status, ourselves, essentially trust in anything other than Him is a false god.  The relationship with Jesus completely changed because it became a “committed relationship” of two: He and I.  I finally committed, He was always committed … I just take a bit of time to realize such things.  The Bible calls “The Church” – real Christians that is – The Bride of Christ.  He sacrificed it all, for us.  He pursues us even when we are at our absolute worst.  His love is unfailing and everlasting.  I would have been foolish to pass up this kind of love.  As a man and woman grow in a committed marriage relationship the intimacy grows, the bonds become stronger, and the sacrifice for one another ever greater (or at least they ought to).

These evidences are true in my walk with the Lord, this is how I know it to be true and the Bible discusses these things as well.  Even now the Lord is still pursuing me, wanting to show me something new about Him and His character, it’s so exciting and refreshing to be renewed in His healing love. Jesus is pursuing you today right now and has been your whole life.  No matter what you’ve done or what you’ve thought Jesus already knows but more importantly he still loves and cares to have a relationship with you too.

Just be honest with yourself and with Him.  He will meet you where you are pick you up, dust you off, and make you new again.  Check it out in the Bible – Matthew, Mark, Luke, John and Romans.  The New Testament books will reveal the intense depth at which the Lord Jesus Christ absolutely 1,000,000% loves every single thing about you.  If you have questions about this stuff, feel down on life, think I’m crazy … I’m all ears … life can be tough … it’s even more difficult with out the foundation of Jesus Christ … please email me.  

The Wedding Day People have asked me recently.

How have you become so passionate about Jesus?  What changed you?

I’ll tell you…

One night 4-5 years ago I was in my room in San Diego reading the following verses:

[Rom 6:1-23 NKJV] 1 What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin that grace may abound? 2 Certainly not! How shall we who died to sin live any longer in it? 3 Or do you not know that as many of us as were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into His death?

4 Therefore we were buried with Him through baptism into death, that just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life. 5 For if we have been united together in the likeness of His death, certainly we also shall be [in the likeness] of [His] resurrection, 6 knowing this, that our old man was crucified with [Him], that the body of sin might be done away with, that we should no longer be slaves of sin.

7 For he who has died has been freed from sin. 8 Now if we died with Christ, we believe that we shall also live with Him, 9 knowing that Christ, having been raised from the dead, dies no more. Death no longer has dominion over Him.

10 For [the death] that He died, He died to sin once for all; but [the life] that He lives, He lives to God. 11 Likewise you also, reckon yourselves to be dead indeed to sin, but alive to God in Christ Jesus our Lord. 12 Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body, that you should obey it in its lusts.

13 And do not present your members [as] instruments of unrighteousness to sin, but present yourselves to God as being alive from the dead, and your members [as] instruments of righteousness to God. 14 For sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law but under grace. 15 What then? Shall we sin because we are not under law but under grace? Certainly not!

16 Do you not know that to whom you present yourselves slaves to obey, you are that one’s slaves whom you obey, whether of sin [leading] to death, or of obedience [leading] to righteousness? 17 But God be thanked that [though] you were slaves of sin, yet you obeyed from the heart that form of doctrine to which you were delivered. 18 And having been set free from sin, you became slaves of righteousness.

19 I speak in human [terms] because of the weakness of your flesh. For just as you presented your members [as] slaves of uncleanness, and of lawlessness [leading] to [more] lawlessness, so now present your members [as] slaves [of] righteousness for holiness. 20 For when you were slaves of sin, you were free in regard to righteousness.

21 What fruit did you have then in the things of which you are now ashamed? For the end of those things [is] death. 22 But now having been set free from sin, and having become slaves of God, you have your fruit to holiness, and the end, everlasting life. 23 For the wages of sin [is] death, but the gift of God [is] eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

After reading this I thought; I’m going to write a contract to Jesus committing my life as a slave to Jesus because He is the embodiment of righteousness.

Instantly my mind (flesh) started freaking out/panicking saying, “No you don’t have to do that!  That’s way too severe!  That’s going too far!  You believe in Jesus that’s enough.  You’ll never be able to keep the agreement anyway.”  Could I fail at upholding this contract?  Yes, I could fall into sin.  Jesus knows this too.  Jesus knows the flesh is weak.  Plus, that’s exactly why Jesus died on the cross, to pay for all of our sins, past, present and future.  Guess what, all God cares about is 1 thing – our hearts.

What do our hearts seek and desire most?  I want to serve and know Jesus 1st and foremost.  Thank God I stopped and questioned this reaction, rather then letting fear take over.

Why is this a bad thing to write a contract committing my life as a slave to Jesus? I asked.

Let’s see here:

1. Jesus created my life

2. Jesus died to save my life.

3. Jesus loves me more than I love myself.

Hmm, I thought, this is a no brainer!  This is the best thing I could ever do!  Of course I’m going to write a contract to Jesus making Him Lord and Master over my life, it went something like this:

I “full name” commit my life as a slave to Jesus Christ into everlasting eternity.  I signed and dated it.

I consider this my wedding to Jesus because at that point I made a contract to him with the intent of always putting him first in my life.  No other false gods, people or things would come between me and my relationship to Jesus Christ of Nazareth.

Listen, there’s nothing wrong with being a “slave” IF you have a Good Master.  Romans 6 indicates basically, we are all slaves either to Satan or to Jesus.  Satan wants and is unrighteous.  Jesus wants and is righteous.  Satan comes to kill, steal and destroy.  Jesus is the way, the truth and the life.

Who do you serve?  Who do you want to serve today?

Did you know I read in a secular book recently that anytime we sign something our thoughts, behaviors, self belief and perceptions are changed whether we like it or not.  I found that very interesting as it pertained to this contract and could see its truth.

Do you want your relationship with Jesus – the God of the Universe – God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob to radically change?  Write a contract out, sign it and put it up in a place or places where you will see it and read it often. I recently shared this idea of writing out a contract between you and Jesus with a friend and this is the contract he came up with – see attachment.

I suspect some of you will think that’s ridiculous I’m not doing that.  I suspect others of you will light up like a Christmas tree in February with a some kerosene and a match at this idea.  This is between you and Jesus Christ.  I recommend typing out or writing out your own contract rather than simply cutting, pasting, and inserting your name into the attached document.  It will become more real as you type out every word or write out every word.  I’m going to personally re-write my contract in a similar way to the contract my friend recently put together, frame it and hang it on a wall as a reminder of who I am and why I’m here.  I’m eager to see how my relationship to Jesus steps up yet another notch.

If you’d like to see the attachment mentioned email me and I’ll send it over to you.

Everyone’s relationship to Jesus is different, I respect and appreciate this.  All I can say is that I know this has changed everything between God Almighty and me – for the positive.  This is simply a little nugget I discovered in Christ on this journey of life he has me on.  I share it with you all openly and freely.

Run with it as you may …

UPDATE ———————-

I recently came across this passage in Isaiah.  To me this represents more confirmation as to why writing a contract to Jesus is a wonderful thing to do.

Isaiah 44:5 – One will say, “I am the LORD’S”; Another will call himself by the name of Jacob; Another will WRITE with his hand, “The LORD’S,” And name himself by the name of Israel.

NOTE: Some cultures their word is their bond, if they say it they will do it.  Other cultures like ours has an attitude of, “It doesn’t matter, unless it’s in writing.”  Since our culture is this way I believe this is why there was such a dramatic impact on my life in writing out the contract.


I pray that God richly blesses you today!

By: Joshua Jolley

In Espanol / Spanish…

Me casé y ni siquiera me daba cuenta!

Miren esto, mi Mamá nos presentó cuando yo tenía 4 años! Wow, lo sé. La relación se desarrolló en mis años formativos de la escuela primaria. Continuamente aprendía acerca de esta persona maravillosa, pasábamos tiempo juntos, riendo, llorando…tu sabes, todo lo que una relación implica…a veces éramos inseparables. Luego mi familia se mudó y comencé a asistir a una escuela pública. Yo no sabía quién yo era, estaba completamente perdido. Especialmente, cuando mis padres se divorciaron. Estaba perdido en altibajos. Era un tiempo de dolor y soledad. Me sentía completamente sólo. Extrañaba al amor de mi vida tremendamente. No hablábamos tan seguido (mayormente por mi), tampoco nos seguimos viendo excepto en raras ocasiones y cuando nos mirábamos yo estaba distante e incómodo.

Alguna vez te has sentido aislado, sólo, no deseado o inapropiado? Bueno, estas eran las cosas por las que mi vida estaba pasando. Me involucré en deportes….fútbol, basketbol y basebol. Si, te sedas a ti mismo con gran cantidad de actividades para esconder el dolor y no ser bueno en ninguno de estos deportes para no recibir elogios por tus habilidades atléticas. Aun así, me encontraba deprimido y no tan amigable, el amor de mi vida esperaba en sus alas mi regreso.

Nunca le di la espalda completamente, pero estaba lejos de parecer una persona agradable. Mis intentos de relación estaban rotos. Cuál es el punto de iniciar una relación si terminará en divorcio (qué tipo de burla es esa?)

La universidad, oh la universidad. Desde que decidí conseguir un trabajo en vez de hacer deportes mi tiempo libre era mayor. Comencé a tomar en las fiestas para sentirme aceptado porque mi autoestima estaba muy baja. Nunca tomé en secundaria porque pensaba que sólo los fracasados lo hacían (después me di cuenta que tomar es sólo una forma diferente en que otros lidian con el dolor que enfrentan en sus vidas…te seda ante las realidades de la vida y de repente no parece nada malo—lo que también representa una mentira… Así que comencé a tomar en la universidad y me volví un fracasado en mi propio concepto…desafortunadamente). Ahora, algunos de ustedes que me conocen dirían, ahhh Jolley tu nunca tomaste tanto como yo. Claro, puede ser cierto. Son las cosas estúpidas que hice mientras bebía las que lastiman más y el autoestima sólo se empeora una vez que comienzas a desembriagarte.
Extrañamente, el amor de mi vida todavía me amaba, y sin bromas, todavía me deseaba. A mi. Parecía que no había nada que yo pudiera hacer para arrancarme este amor.

Cuanto más cosas tontas hacía, el amor parecía volverse mayor. Si, es lo más raro que he experimentado y para ser honesto me molestaba. …esta persona es más delirante que yo? “Wow…tienes problemas” pensé.  Has visto todo lo que he hecho y aun así te importo? Todavía quieres estar conmigo? Todavía quieres platicar conmigo? Todavía me quieres ver? Cómo? Por qué?” El Amor de mi vida no me dió una explicación lógica.

En mi segundo año de universidad perdí a un mejor amigo. Se suicidó a la edad de 19. En ese momento, podría decir que yo era su mejor amigo. Conversábamos seguido. Podía visitar su casa sin avisarle y le platicaba de cosas que pasaban con otros amigos mutuos. No es fácil perder un amigo que no sólo era una persona maravillosa, sino que también tenía mucho que ofrecerle a este mundo. Me hubiera encantado tener una oportunidad para decirle lo único, talentoso y especial que era, sólo una! Será que ese momento de ánimo sería suficiente para revertir la decisión que tomó en la etapa inicial del año escolar en Septiembre? Perdí a mi abuelo el año siguiente cuando iba a tercer año.

Más tarde, luego de mucha reflexión, aprendí acerca de no guardar rencor, de decirle a la gente la verdad, de perdonar y de asegurarme que la gente sepa lo especial que son para mi. La vida es corta. Comencé a aprender que, “No hay mejor tiempo como el presente para corregir los errores del pasado.” La muerte, depresión, soledad, problemas de autoestima me rodearon durante la universidad. No sabía en qué confiar, a qué aferrarme, qué hacer conmigo mismo??? Alguna vez te has sentido así??? Estoy seguro que sí, pero cuando te encuentras en esos momentos de desesperación y desolación….ver a los demás no parece ser la solución sino parte del problema.

Pensamientos de, “No queremos alarmar a nadie o hacerles pensar que soy más raro de lo que yo mismo se que soy. Seguro que seré un marginado luego.” Estos pensamientos hacia uno mismo también son mentiras, ellos solo te vuelven humano y piensas que compartirlo con alguien es la mejor cosa que puedes hacer. (A propósito, soy todo oído, si esto es lo que tu estás pasando hoy, por favor llámame o escríbeme al correo).

Al graduarme, viví una vida recluída en mis negocios y llené mi vida con más estudios. Siempre tenía que estar aprendiendo más y manteniendo la imagen de perfección externa. Te das cuenta lo duro que es eso? Durante todo este tiempo el amor de mi vida me seguía “cortejando”. El amor de mi vida me buscaba. No tenía tiempo para mi amor. Ignoraba por completo a mi amor. Aun así, me seguía buscando. No podía hacer algo para frenar a mi amor? Pensé, “Tu realmente debes estar loco. Si, tu estás loco. No puedes notar una maldita señal, Tu, loco chiflado?? Oseaaaaaaaaa yo no estoy interesado. Tengo otras cosas que hacer. Debo de ir a hacer un millón de dólares para cuando cumpla 30, llámame después por favoooooooor.”

Mi amor nunca agarró la seña, Gracias a Dios. Cuando tenía 23 comencé a mirar atrás y reflexionar acerca de mi vida. Cuándo me sentí más contento? Cuándo estuve más fuerte como persona? La respuesta vino a mi, y, fue en el punto más alto de mi relación con el amor de mi vida, en la escuela primaria. Ahí fue cuando claramente me encontraba más contento y sólido como individuo.Inmediatamente tomé el teléfono y llamé a mi amor. Le expliqué todo…los “ups”…las bajas…la confusión…las dudas…las veces que fui un gran patán– frecuentemente, pude agregar…decidía en mi corazón que quería conocer a mi amor otra vez. Esta vez comencé a perseguir a mi amor…por primera vez.

Sabía que no sería fácil, no lo fue, pero, sabes qué? Hice un compromiso de permanecer  fiel a mi amor. Quería estar con mi amor para siempre y sabes qué, este sentimiento era recíproco!!! Haaaaa!

Wow…sabía que el amor de mi vida estaba demente! Por supuesto, esta era una gran noticia para mi!!! La hice!, gracias a mis estrellas de la suerte! Después de las parrandas, el libertinaje, el rechazo, las dudas, la soledad, la depresión, la baja autoestima…nada de eso parecía importar, nada de eso. El amor de mi vida me amó incondicionalmente a través del dolor, sufrimiento, aislamiento y dolor del corazón. No es esto amor?

Desde la edad de los 23 a los 25 pasamos familiarizándonos el uno del otro. Conversábamos frecuentemente, pasábamos tiempo juntos, compartíamos momentos de intimidad, reíamos y llorábamos, valorábamos la presencia el uno del otro. Un lazo de sanidad se comenzó a formar mientras comenzaba a escuchar al amor de mi vida con mayor atención. Me di cuenta que entre más tiempo pasaba con el amor de mi vida, más sabía que el proceso de compromiso es realmente una experiencia gratificante y necesaria de compartir. Los lazos formados en esta “ relación de compromiso” son mucho más fuertes que todo lo que he experimentado hasta este punto. Cuán agradecido estaba.

A la edad de 25 la pregunta fue hecha, “Te casarás conmigo o qué?” Al principio, esa pregunta me espantaba. Luego me relajé y pensé acerca de esto. Hmmmm….por qué no? Mi amor nunca me ha dejado, nunca me abandonó, siempre me amó sin importar lo horrible que fueran mis acciones. Tendría que estar loco para no casarme. Así que lo hice! Comprometí mi vida con el amor de mi vida, Jesús, y me casé!!!

Me tomó 21 años para rendir mi vida entera a Jesús. El Señor me buscó durante toda mi vida pero yo no estaba consciente de Su Presencia hasta que cumplí 4 años, sin embargo, El estaba pendiente de mi. De hecho, me pongo a pensar de lo que hice hace 3.5 años, en un tiempo como este. Cuando tenía 25 años, decidí escribirle un contrato a Jesús para entregarle mi vida entera y hacerlo mi Señor y Maestro. Un cosa es tener un montón de conocimiento acerca de la Biblia, creer que Jesús existió, que hizo cosas buenas y que se levantó al tercer día luego de haber estado colgado en la cruz y haber muerto.

Pero una cosa diferente es comprometer tu vida a El como tu único foco, de confiar en El solamente y vivir la Biblia en acciones (El está trabajando continuamente en eso conmigo). Ves que este mundo está lleno de dioses falsos; Tv, dinero, amistades, clase social, nosotros mismos, esencialmente confiar en algo más que en El, se convierte en un dios falso. La relación con Jesús cambió por completo porque se convirtió en una “relación de compromiso” de dos: El y Yo. Finalemente, me comprometí, El siempre estuvo comprometido…sólo me tomé un tiempo para darme cuenta de estas cosas. La Biblia llama “La Iglesia” – a Cristianos verdaderos – La Novia de Cristo, El sacrificó todo, por nosotros.

El nos busca aun cuando estamos en nuestro peor estado. Su amor es eterno y nunca falla. Hubiera sido tonto si dejaba pasar este amor. Como un hombre y una mujer crecen en una relación de compromiso matrimonial, su intimidad crece, los lazos se vuelven más fuertes, y el sacrificio del uno por el otro es mayor (o por lo menos lo intentan). Estas evidencias son reales en mi caminar con el Señor, así es como lo conozco en realidad y la Biblia aborda estos temas de esta manera. Aun en la actualidad el Señor me sigue buscando, anhelando mostrarme algo nuevo acerca de El y de Su carácter, es emocionante y refresacante ser renovado en Su amor sanador.

Jesus te está buscando hoy, ahora mismo y así lo ha estado en tu vida entera. No importa lo que hayas hecho o lo que has pensado que Jesus conoce de ti, lo más importante es que El aun te ama y le importa tener una relación contigo también. Sólo se honesto contigo mismo y con El. El te conocerá donde te encuentras, te levantará, te desempolvará, y te hará nuevo otra vez. Revísalo en la Biblia – Mateo, Marcos, Lucas, Juan y Romanos. Los libros del Nuevo Testamento te revelarán la intensa profundidad con la cual el Señor Jesuscristo ama absolutamente 1,000,000% cada detalle de ti.

Si tienes preguntas acerca de esto, si te sientes desanimado, crees que estoy loco…Soy todo oidos…la vida puede ser dura…es aun más difícil sin la presencia de Jesuscristo…por favor escríbeme.

El día de la Boda
La gente recientemente me ha preguntado
Cómo te has vuelto tan apasionado por Jesús? Qué te cambió?
Te lo diré….

Una noche, hace 4  ó 5 años atrás yo estaba en mi habitación en San Diego, leyendo los siguientes versículos:

“19 Hablo en términos humanos, por las limitaciones de su *naturaleza humana. Antes ofrecían ustedes los miembros de su cuerpo para servir a la impureza, que lleva más y más a la maldad; ofrézcanlos ahora para servir a la justicia que lleva a la *santidad. 20 Cuando ustedes eran esclavos del pecado, estaban libres del dominio de la justicia. 21 ¿Qué fruto cosechaban entonces? ¡Cosas que ahora los avergüenzan y que conducen a la muerte! 22 Pero ahora que han sido liberados del pecado y se han puesto al servicio de Dios, cosechan la santidad que conduce a la vida eterna. 23 Porque la paga del pecado es muerte, mientras que la dádiva de Dios es vida eterna en Cristo Jesús, nuestro Señor.”

Después de leer esto, pensé; Voy a escribir un contrato con Jesús, comprometiendo mi vida como esclavo de El porque Jesús es la encarnación de la justicia.

Instantáneamente mi mente (carne) comenzó a asustarse/ llenarse de pánico, diciendo, “No, no tienes que hacer eso! Eso es muy severo! Eso se está yendo muy lejos! Tu crees en Jesús, eso es suficiente. Nunca serás capaz de mantener el acuerdo de ninguna manera” Podría fallar de sostener este contrato? Si, podría caer en pecado. Jesús sabe esto también. Jesús sabe que la carne es débil. Además, eso es exactamente por lo que Jesús murió en la cruz, para pagar por todos nuestros pecados, pasado, presente y futuro. Sabes qué, todo lo que a Dios le importa es 1 cosa – nuestros corazones.

Qué es lo que nuestros corazones buscan y desean más? Yo quiero servir y conocer a Jesús en primer lugar y como prioridad.

Qué es lo malo de escribir un contrato y comprometer mi vida como esclavo de Jesús? Me pregunté.

1.    Jesús me creó.
2.    Jesús murió para salvarme.
3.    Jesús me ama más de lo que me amo a mí mismo.

Hmm, pensé, es obvio! Esto es lo mejor que pude haber hecho! Por supuesto que escribiré un contrato con Jesús para que El se convierta en el Señor y Salvador de mi vida, y fue algo como esto:

Yo “Nombre completo” comprometo mi vida como esclavo de Jesuscristo por toda la eternidad. Lo firmé y le coloqué la fecha.

Esto lo consideré mi boda con Jesús porque hasta ese momento hice un contrato con El con la intención de siempre colocarlo a El primero en mi vida. No otros dioses falsos, gente o cosas podrían interponerse entre mi relación con Jesús de Nazareth y yo.

Escucha, no hay nada malo con ser un “esclavo” SI  tienes un Buen Maestro. Romanos 6 básicamente indica que todos somos esclavos, ya sea de Satanás o de Jesús. Satanás quiere que seamos sus esclavos y es injusto. Jesús quiere que seamos sus esclavos y es justo. Sartanás vino a matar, robar y destruir. Jesús es el camino, la verdad y la vida.

A quién sirves? A quién deseas servirle hoy?

Sabías que, recientemente leí en un libro secular que siempre que firmamos algo, nuestros pensamientos, comportamientos, creencias y percepciones cambian nos guste o no. Me pareció muy interesante porque tenía que ver con este contrato y podía saber que esta afirmación era verdad.
Deseas que tu relación con Jesús – el Dios del Universo – Dios de Abraham, Isaac y Jacob cambie radicalmente? Redacta un contrato, fírmalo y colócalo en un lugar o lugares donde lo verás y lo leerás con frecuencia.

Recientemente compartí esta idea de escribir un contrato entre Jesús y tu, con un amigo y este es el contrato que el elaboró – mira el adjunto.

Sospeché que algunos de ustedes iban a pensar “eso es ridículo, yo no haré eso”. Sospeché que otros iban prenderle fuego a esta idea con kerosene y fósforos, como a árbol de navidad en Febrero (pasado de temporada)

Esto es entre tu y Jesuscristo. Recomiento escribir a computadora o a mano tu propio contrato que solamente cortarlo, pegarlo e insertar tu nombre en el documento adjunto. Se volverá más real en la medida que teypeas o escribes cada palabra.

Re-escribiré mi contrato personalmente de forma similar al contrato que mi amigo recientemente elaboró, lo enmarcaré y lo colgaré en una pared como recordatorio de quién soy y por qué estoy aquí. Estoy ansionso de ver cómo mi relación con Jesús se intensifica todavía más.

Si quisieras ver el documento adjunto que mencioné, escríbeme al correo y yo te lo enviaré.
La relación de cada uno con Jesús es diferente, respeto y aprecio esto. Todo lo que puedo decir es que se que esto ha cambiado todo entre El Dios Todopoderoso y yo – para bien.

Esto es solamente una semilla que descubrí en Cristo en este camino de la vida que El me preparó. Lo comparto contigo abierta y libremente. Corre con ella lo que puedas…

recientemente me econtré con este pasaje de Isaías. Para mi esto representa más la confirmación de por qué escribirle un contrato a Jesús es algo maravilloso de hacer.

Isaías 44:5 – Uno dirá: ‘Pertenezco al Señor’;    otro llevará el *nombre de Jacob,y otro escribirá en su mano: ‘Yo soy del Señor’,    y tomará para sí el nombre de Israel.”

NOTA: Para algunas culturas, su palabra es su lazo, si lo dicen, lo harán. Otras culturas como la nuestra tienen una actitud de, “la palabra no importa, a menos que esté por escrito”. Debido a que nuestra cultura es así, creo que esta fue la razón por la cual escribir el contrato tuvo un gran impacto en mi vida.


Oro para que Dios te bendiga ricamente hoy!

Fuiste cambiado?
Fuiste impactado?
Comparte lo que experimentaste?

Por favor, comparte cualquier comentario o retroalimentación como lo consideres.


Por: Joshua Jolley